..:: GOOD GIRL GONE BAD ::..

hahahaa officially babi. Dia memang jantan yg tergolong di dalam trash. Babi betul..he never change laa this man. So after aku tak tahan sgt he never reply...aku cerita la kat alia my besprenggg aka awek pada best friend babi itu. Dia pun gelak je. And guess what. KAU DAH ADA AWEK. and tekaan aku tepat. Kau cari aku sebab samada kau tgh bosan awek kau tak layan or tgh high dadah. Hahahaa kau mmg takkan berubah. Kau buat perkara yg sama dgn apa ygnkau buat pada aku. Kau cari ex kau balik bila bosan..babi!!!! Oooo so alia cerita kau dh ada awek. And awek kau pun askar. Wowwww congrats. Plus, dia cakap awek ko lawa. Wowwww amazing. And ko selalu send gambar dia dlm group family..yup. The same as what you did to me. So sweetttt. Siap send gambar duduk sebelah rapat2 pgg tgn. Hahahahaha You know what? I dont care. Kau nak mati pun aku tak heran. And im so glad aku tak tertipu dgn lakonan kau. For the first time in my life, i thought im gonna fall with the same person twice. Tap

2 days later. And he never reply since that day. Walaupun aku yg biarkan conversation tu terhenti di situ. No words from him anymore. Now i know.. he text me again really and really its all about MINTAK MAAF. nothing elese. And i expect too much. Bukan aku berharap..aku cuma sangka je..i thought dia ni tgh bosan takde teman ke or baru break dgn awek keliling pinggang dia ke. Who know.. or even good thing, nak bg kad kawin utk aku ke. But he's NOT. The only reason he text me back..is just for a forgiving from me. Well..i think it's a good thing. Yep, now aku dah sejujur seikhlas hati maafkan dia. To watch him moving on with his life as a soldier now..and maybe a married man soon with 6 or 8 children. Hahaa :') I cant deny the feeling i got for him is too real..and it's still there..forever deep in my heart. I will keep my promise. That he is my last love💕 But to create the journey again and loving again with you..no.. the heart cant take the pain anymore. I&

if i really dont care... Why the hell im waiting every second.. The reply Since yesterday.

Hahaha masih tentang lelaki ini. So after beberapa reply dari aku yg hanbar. Sebab taknak bg jantan ni igt aku easy. Lol jijik gilaaaa babi bila aku tanya 'apa cerita skrg?' Dia send gambar. Aku pathetic igt nak hantar gambar awek dia ke tunang dia. Rupanya gambar dia pakai seragam askar dia tu. cinabeng tol. Igt aku kisah ke setannn. Sumpah aku nak maki!!! Aku pn mcm ooooooo dah jadi askar. Tahniah. Hambar bukan And aku tnya soalan maut. So skrg dah beristeri dah ada anak ke Bila dia tnya kenapa aku tnya mcm tu. Aku just jawab saja. Tpi in my mind 'bukan tu ke sebab kau tinggalkan aku dulu???????? Sebab aku tolak kau nk bg hantaran awal merisik pebenda la semua tu. sebab kau nak aku disisi kau. GI MAMPUSSSSS and lepas tu aku dh tak reply. Sebab aku taknak jd loser. Skrg aku tgh nak hamburkan segala apa yg jadi. Nak ckp semua kesan dia pada hidup aku. How he make me turn into a monster in the darkness. All i see in my life now is dark and black. But yet a str

Hati..maafkan aku. Aku reply. Sebab aku tercabar satu dgn kata semangat kawan2. Tunjuk dh move on. Satu lg sebab dia dm lagi..cakap mcm ni 'Sarah awk marah sy lagi ke. Salam sy pun awak tak balas. Sy msg ni bukan nak ganggu hidup awk lg. sy cuma nak mintak maaf' Fuhhhh dia punya berlakon and ayat tuuuu babi pun boleh tergoda. But not me!! Aku takut dia fikir aku marah berdendam lagi (well actually i am) so aku reply la sepatah. Tapi tak sangka sampai 2 3 patah pulak reply. Aku rasa mcm bodoh skrg!!! Mesti dia igt aku easy person. Babinya. I should end this conversation. Aku nak menganjing dulu. Tanya pasal kawin ke. Panassss hati aku sumpah panasss. Fuhhhhh kalau kau ade depan mata aku skrg. Aku sepak terajang dh kau. Natang betul!! Now what???

Hari ini...24/1/18. Aku terasa nak bukak fb yg kian berhabuk. Finally.. benda yg aku tunggu since a year ago..happened today!!! Babi itu..ya babi itu..add fb aku. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭jantung aku nak meletup  ya allah..kenapa mesti after a year benda ni. Aku rasa nak marah sgt!!! Babi ni dah melampau. Kau tak fikir ke perasaan aku babi. Kau sepatutnya mati diam2.dan lenyap terus. And dia juga dm something . Ape khabar sarah? Hahahahahahaha semudah itu sahaja. Ape kau nak babi?????? Skrg aku dilema.. A)ignore B)reply dgn makian C) reply leklok tunjuk kita dh move on

and since that day..banyak kali terserempak dia .tak la terserempak..dia yg dtg bli dekat koperasi aku kerja tu. pernah tu dia dtg beli...dia tak beratur..duk sebelah kaunter berdiri kt situ., aku igtkan siapa la tunggu ni..buat taktau je la. ntah berapa lama dia duk situ perhati aku menjual hahahhaah . dia akan datang pada waktu yg sama setiap ptg. its kinda made my day sebab aku pun mudah terhibur tgk dia.pastu an semua story ig aku kalau boleh dia nak reply. haiyooo this man ahhh. . and yg lawak..semalam dpt pickupline yg taktau la sincere ke tak. K: bila balik kampung? me: lusa...lambat lagi. dah rindu rumah ni. K: rumah kau rindu, habis saya? me: hahahhahaahhaha taktau nak gelak ke nak happy. its kinda disturbing my mind sebab dah lama tak cheeky mcm ni. so i just reply haahahahahahaha. and one more his cheeky words me: kamu di sabah kan..wah seronok la K: ya la. kenapa? me: nanti sy nak bercuti kesana. yeayy K: boleh2. nanti saya temankan kamu ye i wonder..why

he suddenly approaches me. talk to me..easily to laugh with me. i dont know why me. should i opened up to him? well i guess not. im not into love anymore. well..he does have perfect gesture as a man. he's tall, cute and handsome but........white skin. remember when i said how my taste for men was? hahahaa indeed if h's got dark skin, i will also not into him. enough just like friends. im good like this. even crush-ing things is not my thing anymore. btw he is a non muslim..from sabah. if u noted him in my latest post on ig..u will saw him. he's funny though. sangat mudah terhibur 😂😂 first informal words he say to me was...follow la ig saya. hahaaa