..:: GOOD GIRL GONE BAD ::..

this is my story about my last love or boyfriend. he's the reason for everything change about me now. he's the silence killer of me. my most true but pain love. i never love anyone like i did to him. the story begin like this. . . . . 17/10/2016 pagi tu, pajera sampai ke kolej aku. kitorg nak bertolak sama2 ke penang esoknya. so dia lepak2 sini dulu. so, byk la aku duk share2 gosip2 ngan dia. that time, aku tgh duk meroyan lg kena tinggal EX babi tu MHI. tp masuk ni dh sebulan so dah takde tears cuma emosi masih ade la. pajera lak time ni duk angau katanya ade boyfriend baru. kapel baru 3 hari. so many story to told. hahaaa. it was a nice day really.. . tp si pajera ni punya laaa clingy dgn pakwe barunya..setiap saat nak bergayut..so aku pun naik fedup. saje2 la duk main2 suruh pakwe dia tu rekemen member. hahaaa..last2 berkenan kat sorg hamba allah ni. yaaa,,,that man!!!! WMAS. kalau boleh taknak igt laa feeling time tu. aku pun buat la kerja bodoh yg lame sgt acah sal...

The only place that would hear the screaming from my heart is here. Ive got so much things in my head..too much.. but i dont have anybody to talk to..no.. actually i dont want to talk to anybody. Coz nobody will understand. . What if i said all this pain that i felt..all those stories that ive been through, all those hardship that i faced..begin with MUSIC. Do you believe it? . . Well..i will begin the story when I ready to.

It's been exactly 5 month now. But everything still clearly in my mind. Every single thing.. i still remembered the feeling the weather the voice the moments..and every fucking detailed things. And yes it is a burden!!! I feel like a prisoner. Stuck with his beautiful memories forever. Oh no...actually her beautiful fake memories. No i dont miss him or everything. It just my heart keep saying to myself that it is just a dream so why must u hate the memories. Yeahh..i guess dream is supposed not to be a matter or something that u should bothered. In the end it will just faded away. I hope so.. Please go away..dream. stop it. . By the way im better handling with my life now. Whenever i feel so lonely i will quickly find my family or my friends. They sure know how to make me feel worthy. Such feelings that i never feel whem im with guys. So tell me why should i accept any guy after this. No way man. I got everything more than what i want.